I've been out of my "relationship" with a sociopath for 3 months. However, I've just realized the depths of manipulation I incurred while in this 3 year hell with this person.

I'm angry and reliving the horror that she put me through. At this moment, it seems overwhelming to have realized that every waking moment with this evil soul was a lie. Her evil was so intricate and calculated, to the point that I attempted suicide at least 8 different times in those 3 years.

Long story short, she used me as a temporary vessel to move back home, however, I prolonged the misery by staying by her side even though she attempted to discard me two months into the relationship. In her words "I can't get rid of you". As a true sociopath does, she guided me towards a path of self destruction in hopes that I would fall apart and off myself. Baiting me to pull the trigger on myself, so to speak.

I am thankful to be alive and honestly don't know how I survived. I'm seeking guidance because the wounds are deep and I want to heal.

Thank you

Namaste.