I've been in therapy for 3 months now. I have a lot of symptoms of ptsd and I think is due to abuse I've experienced in my childhood. I just don't remember. I've been having terrible flashbacks and so this stuff has been on my mind for a while now. So last night I had a really, really horrible dream. I was in my uncle's flat (which was situated on our yard when I was a child). I was laying on a table, I was filthy, and full of bruises. My father (who has been deceased for 8 years), my uncle and my other uncle were all standing around me. My uncle told me how stupid I was for not knowing that they all had their chance (with me) and now they were going to do it again. I think I told him that I would fight. He was laughing at how stupid I was for not realizing that it was (all three of) them. And then he started hitting me till I bled. I don't remember the rest of the dream. I know dreams are just symbolic but a part of me feels like my subconscious (for lack of a better word) was trying to tell me something. It really, really disturbs me. I have had a massive headache the whole and feel as if my body has been hit by a train. Maybe if I can make sense of the dream's symbolic meaning I can have some peace?