I was going to add, if any of you are inclined to pray, please do so. I am hoping for a Christmas miracle right now at the best. I have so little motivation but to sit back and watch it all happen. It seems hopeless.

And by the way, for those of you who I got a PM about from DocJohn a few weeks ago--thank you. It was very much appreciated.

If only someone could PM me a whole new life. I'll take what's behind Door #1. I kind of wish my doctor appointment was this week instead of next week. He's all I've got. It will likely be a quick tummy check and a lot of talk. And hoping I don't cry. Still afraid of that. My changed the default on my appointments so they are always scheduled for a half-hour and not the standard 15-minutes so we have some "social time". Wish I could take something in for him for a gift of some sort. Might have to be creative.