I start a new identity and blog that ends up being deleted, I join some new group that is spiritual in nature because I now believe I am enlightened and must help everyone else get the same, I spend $300 or more on my wife in jewelry (the only one of may manic moves she likes!), I drive around the freeways like I am in Mad Max, I start smoking copious amounts of marijuana until I begin hallucinating, I walk for hours around the park, I pace back and forth in my living room, I throw away my medications, and start to throw out old clothe, yell at everyone in the grocery store, having visions of wreaking havoc by tossing shopping carts and goods, I scream at my mom, I laugh to myself all the time, I cook up a storm after spending way too much on sirloin cuts of meat I cannot afford, go and buy stuff at the thrift shop I don't really need, fuel my mania with more marijuana, fight the urge to drink alcohol (if I did, my wife would leave me), change my mobile phone number after smashing my current phone to bits, I surf the web for 7 hours straight, I stay up until the wee hours of the morning, sleep for a few hours and then get back online, and write things on the blog I am creating at the time as if it were the most important thing in my life, take thousands of photos for the blog that I think is going to make me rich with an automatic money making system, and my favorite one of all- read the Bible and believe that only I can understand what it says and then go tell other Christians that they are blind to the real teachings of Christ.
Thanks for starting this thread LaLaLa, oh what fun to find the similarities in us all!
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Current Dx- Bipolar I w/ psychotic features - Borderline Personality Disorder
Current Rx- 15mg Olanzapine, 50mg Trazodone 2x day, 200mg at night, 300mg Bupropion XR, Prozac 20mg
Previous Dx- paranoid schizophrenia, schizoaffective bipolar disorder
Previous Rx- Depakote, Seroquel, Risperidone
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