Thank you for all your understanding, empathy,friendship and hugs. Im not very good when it comes to describing how much PC has been a part of my life. I know I dont give gratitude often enough to you good people who meet me in the place I am and help me wobble past my faults and misunderstandings. You're always there for me anyway.

Gayle - There is a center near where I live that Ive visited when I thought I needed to. Im not sure if I need to over this. If I think I do, I will, ok? Thanks for your caring suggestion ((hugs))). A good cry has been trying to come on as Ive been writing this. We can share our tears together if you want.

Gismo - (((hugs))) Your words brought to me a light spirit of brightness and hope. Im not sure how you do that, but, you do it well. At times I feel like a book is all Im going to be able to salvage out of this shipwreck. I try to be sound, Ive meant to be sound. Love wont fail me, this I know. But you know, it hurts sometimes.

Thank you W4m - (((hugs))) You've travelled this road some distance,These are my first steps. I feel like a greenhorn about it. Im raw, I feel sensitive, these wet drops are falling from my eyes and right now, no one is holding me. But I have you guys. Im seriously spiritual and I know thats going to help a lot and factor in. I couldnt take these steps without a belief in things greater than myself. I cant cry these tears without believing love means something, to all of us, at some time. I have to learn my lesson about love, and these were some of the people that taught me the best they could. I want to know what they wanted me to know. I want to know if I got it all right. Thier spirits will tell me.

The thing is, I just dont want to see this as something sad that happened, or that its a loss in some way. they gave to me a gift.