Thanks again
Well, I have an appointment with the counselor a week from tomorrow. Not as soon as I'd hoped - was hoping since I could go any time there might be some random spot sooner - but it's ok. I think I'll try to find ways to be around people until then, because while I see hope, I still feel really needy and lonely - I'm just more willing to try now, I guess. One thing heavy on my mind is the idea that I've been abused... I don't know how to feel about that, and wish I could talk about it sooner.
Unfortunately, initiating things is very hard for me, feel like I've done way too much of it lately as it is, and without planned events it's not so likely I'll end up doing anything with people. Just see how it goes, I guess.
I wish I knew huggy people around here. When I worked at the ministry I was able to get lots of hugs, and it was very good. I miss that a lot.