Yes, that is understandable. I like that viewpoint as well. He admits that he is someone who holds onto things now, more than ever. So, speaking to a therapist is a positive idea. He tol me yesterday that he's been holding little things against me that I do and say that he's never done before. I'm talking about things from last month and beyond. It's insane to hear him tell me things he took the wrong way, he even told me he wasn't sure some of them were things I've said or things other people have said to him!

Another very bothersome thing I've been noticing....he used to be very passionate about history, especially about the Titanic. Never speaks of things he's interested in anymore. He loved watching love stories with me, The Notebook is one I can recall off hand. He literally refuses to watch anything but action movies. I brought home a movie last month that had a few sentimental parts, and he literally got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower. I know all of these things mean nothing to anybody outside of our relationship, but for me to watch it, it's like I'm living with a different person!!! I'm scared I'm going to lose him completely, and that I can't pretend that I'm ok much longer.

This feels like a place to vent. I guess I need it pretty badly...