As the title says, I often feel "not trans* enough". I'm AFAB intergender (between/ combination of man and woman). But I enjoy wearing "women's" clothing and keep my hair long. So basically, I'm completely invisible. Despite the INTENSE dysphoria this causes me (omg, I HATE being called a girl/woman!), I still frequently feel like my experience "doesn't count" as being trans*. I desperately want testosterone, both to bring my body in line with my mental image and to finally be visibly "other", and I feel like I'm waiting for that experience to finally feel fully validated. Like I can't be trans* until I LOOK trans* and start physically transitioning.

Being out to my immediate family, friends, and being willing to share when appropriate in class helps minimize this experience, but I recently came out to my psychiatrist, who does NOT have any trans* patient experience. It was humiliating having to try to answer his stereotype-dependent questions to try to prove to him that I really am trans*. I still feel like he doesn't believe me or thinks it's a borderline identity phase, even though this has been a stable part of my identity for about 7 months now and I know now that there's been signs of this Ive ignored and pushed down that go YEARS back.

I guess I just need to hear from someone who understands trans* issues that you don't have to fit the binary-identified, known-since-childhood, fit-gender-stereotypes model and still be trans*.