I am just having a blah week in general. I suppose it is not specific to my ADD but I just have struggling to get motivated and do anything. i have so many things running through my mind but I cannot settle on any one of them. So I end up doing none of them.

I just finished school for phlebotomy/medical lab assistant about a month or so ago now. I was ready and raring to go. But my externship does not start until august 16th which is finally coming up. But I have lost the drive/fire. I was trying to get placed so there would not be to much of a lapse in time I was off to when I started. I have only been able to go into class two times to practice drawing blood since june 22nd which was the last day of class where as I was practicing two nights a week for almost a year. so now I am freaking out that I am gonna suck. Well that and because the nights I have gone since class ended I cannot hit the broadside of a barn now. I was doing awesome at the end and was really in my stride, I could not miss anything. But I have lost the touch and it is going to be like starting all over to me so my confidence is just in the dumps now and I do not even want to go and start it now nor do I even care at this point. I wish now the start date was later because after the weekend I go in for my second day. The class starts up again so I wish there would be a later start date now so I could go in and practice two nights a week and get back in the groove like I had.