Well I've been good with no alcohol. Last night my friend wanted me to drink with her and I kept saying no. She finally gave up. Food stuff is still a chaotic mess.

Feel like I've majorly binged - I had four fruit roll ups in the past 10 minutes... Not eating much of anything else it's not much. I just hate feeling out of control like I binged.

I'm taking my boys out of town tomorrow for a couple days and in my head I'm thinking of when/how I will be able to purge because I can't get away with not eating...ugh.