Wow, I can so relate to this. I know the wall, I have it as well. Not sure what's going on behind it, and when I get close it scares me. There's a dark fog surrounding it which makes me nervous... Not sure how to approach it. Have been aware of the wall between me and my emotions for about half a year and still I am avoiding it.

I know that I am stressed - I try too hard and on top of that I try to cope with my OCD, which at the moment gets tougher and tougher.

Not sure I can give any advice, since I haven't figured it out for myself yet, but if you want to talk I am here.