You do sound like me. I'm 30 and I graduated with honors from high school 12 years ago. I am so bitter about all the wasted years as well, and I could go back and get a master's degree, but I'm not going to because I know that I wouldn't be able to do it. I tried to stick it out but it just didn't work. I know I'm not the only one who didn't get a master's or higher in my class, and I know I'm lucky to be employed because I know people who graduated with me who are either unemployed or working in another field. But that doesn't get rid of the bitter feelings and feelings of regret. Now I love the job I have now, but the pay is bad and I barely make enough to make ends meet each month, sometimes I have to forfeit one bill to pay another, and I often times have to borrow money from mom to get me gas or groceries. But I should be getting a raise at the end of this month. I hope it's an amount that will help me cover the cost of my bills. I feel the same way about my world, even when I'm in a good mood, and even though I know my situation is not bad, I feel like I'm spiraling out of control and I try to focus on things I can change but I get so overwhelmed that I end up burning out. I hope you do find something enjoyable, I know I enjoy my job, but the pay is crappy. At least I have enough to live on my own. My last job was only part time and barely above minimum wage and I had to live at home because I couldn't afford to live on my own. I certainly do feel thankful that I have a full-time job now and I am salaried, but the salary is only a little above poverty level. Oh well, beggars can't be choosers. I should stop complaining.
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