monty girl you sound like me. 2 years ago i was wearing string bikinis at the pool & all my little shorts were starting to fall off & now im up to about 180. thing is with me i can exercise & i love to. ill start up really well & i just go into this rut of overeating & laying around. ive always had these weight issues along with addictions to alcohol, drugs & periods of compulsive overexercise. ive recently been diagnosed with bipolar1 & i think maybe it has alot to do with going from one extreme to the other. im in the process of getting the right combo of meds & hopefully i can find a middle ground. i hate having fat on me & i will get it off. ive just been trying to be patient with myself for now but then my mind goes into overdrive about 5 months to get in shape for the pool. i get so tired of all of this & i havent slept in like 3 days adding to the misery.