I personally, have to depend on medications are I get suicidal. In fact, right now, due to a medical condition had a conflict in medication and had to be taken off all my psych meds. I manage by staying in bed as much as possible and avoiding people. Not a good place to be. Being on PsychCentral has helped. I'm now back on a mood stablizer but it is not doing much. Will be another month at least before I'm off the blood thinners and can go back on my psych meds. I would suggest professional help. Therapy helps as well as meds for some people. Good luck and keep posting.
Gayle