Idk what's going on with me. I feel like I'm having a heart attack. I know it must just be a. Bad panic attack, but I'm so sick of being messed up. I hate being by myself period, but lately I don't want to go anywhere by myself either. I feel like I need a lot more "help" than I can get. I feel like its too late to have the life I want and I will just be miserable the rest of my life. I'm so scared I don't want to go to the hospital. But I don't feel very safe.