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Originally Posted by growlithing
That didn't have anything to do with my SI though. I didn't do that because my SI escalated, I did that because I was desperate to escape my situation and couldn't see any other immediate way out and I was scared.
I'm not trying to argue for self harm at all. I know it is wrong and I know that I need to stop. I'm just trying to understand why. I can see that it continues the cycle of abuse and I can see that it does hurt people outside of myself.
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The point is, you didn't see your abuse as a big deal while it was happening, but the long-term effects are obvious. SI is functioning similarly for you. You aren't able to see it as truly harmful right now, but the reality is that the damage to you physically and emotionally is adding up over time.
Time to learn healthy coping skills. Physically damaging your body is not a healthy way to deal with stress. You can learn differently.