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Originally Posted by 1914sierra
The point is, you didn't see your abuse as a big deal while it was happening, but the long-term effects are obvious. SI is functioning similarly for you. You aren't able to see it as truly harmful right now, but the reality is that the damage to you physically and emotionally is adding up over time.
Time to learn healthy coping skills. Physically damaging your body is not a healthy way to deal with stress. You can learn differently.
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You're right. There really is no way physically harming myself can be good.
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Originally Posted by LolaCabanna
I think you are correct and this is good insight. It's not a good thing, no matter how good it makes you feel. It's like a drug addict trying to justify their habit. 
Don't worry about me, I'm a big girl and I can glad in the same pants I got mad in. |
I almost feel like your anger actually added to the weight of your point lol. This is clearly an emotionally charged issue and it's naive/insensitive of me to assume that it isn't and that other people including total strangers wouldn't be affected by this. Maybe me saying the marks on my arms don't look like anything but just scars is also me being in denial. I've seen other people with self harm scars and I can recognize it right away as an SI scar without anyone even telling me. I'm hyper aware to noticing that stuff and the people who would be triggered by seeing it would be too.
Your suicide risks page was also right too. I wouldn't have done what I did if I hadn't desensitized myself to pain via self harm. There is no way I could have tried. I would have been too scared of the pain. Fearing pain wasn't a factor in that decision.