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Read this conversation. In it, I'm NuclearHighway and kayla is a friend I talk to on the internet.
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Kayla: dont be mad at me nuclear but.... 11:28 PM
Kayla: when i first met you (which i have no idea when i did) i thought you were a jerk...like a stuck-up jerk that doesn't say anything 11:28 PM
Kayla: please........dont be mad. 11:28 PM
NuclearHighway: ... 11:28 PM
Kayla: no.. dont take it the wrong way 11:29 PM
Kayla: i dont anymore....that's a start right? 11:29 PM
NuclearHighway: not mad how could that be though i thought i was nice? 11:29 PM
Kayla: you are! you are the most amazingest (not a word) person i know! Aug 4
The awesome TheTraveler joined the chat 11:29 PM
NuclearHighway: kind of feel sad now sorry.. never realized i make bad first impressions.. 11:30 PM
Katie: uh, hi...I feel awkward just joining y'all's chat lol 11:30 PM
Kayla: idk though cos i thought that i was making things worse when i first met you, i would say hi and i thought u never said anything and that you would ignore me 11:30 PM
TheTraveler answered: Phoenix 11:30 PM
Kayla: no you don't! i guess its my fault 11:30 PM
daniela: hi katie 11:30 PM
Kayla: hey thetraveler 11:30 PM
TheTraveler: hey 11:30 PM
Katie: How is everyone doin? 11:30 PM
Kayla: because once i said hi i thought you never said anything back and when someone else came on you would say hi to them...so i thought you hated me.. @NuclearHighway Aug 4
Lily: I think I'm gonna go eveyone. See ya. 11:31 PM
Kayla: im great thanks! you? 11:31 PM
NuclearHighway: thanks so much for telling me that though 11:31 PM
Katie: Pretty well 11:31 PM
Kayla: you're welcome...i didn't want to hide it from you and i felt like it would be good if i told you 11:32 PM
Kayla: oh that's good to hear Katie [big grin] 11:32 PM
Kayla: wait did you just say thanks nuclear? 11:32 PM
NuclearHighway: i feel terrible.. 11:33 PM
Kayla: i feel sadder....im so sorry nuclear! 11:33 PM
Kayla: i didn't mean to ruin the mood ... 11:34 PM
NuclearHighway: its ok^^ 11:34 PM
Kayla: i feel like a terribly horrible person 11:34 PM
Kayla: its not ok! i shouldn't have said it.... 11:34 PM
Kayla: im so sorry... 11:34 PM
NuclearHighway: not your fault.. its me apparantly 11:34 PM
Kayla: [frown] 11:34 PM
Kayla: no its not you...it was me that "thought" you hated me.. 11:34 PM
The awesome psychoticmess joined the chat 11:35 PM
Kayla: i was being stupid and immature, i've always thought that you hated me and its all my fault for making you upset 11:35 PM
The awesome help joined the chat 11:35 PM
NuclearHighway: but i thought i told you that i was muti tasking at that time? 11:35 PM
help answered: Dragon 11:35 PM
Kayla: was that the first time we met? or was it later on? 11:35 PM
psychoticmess: hey help 11:36 PM
NuclearHighway: both 11:36 PM
Kayla: cos i cant remember all i remember was talking to Anonymous Batman at that time 11:36 PM
help: hello 11:36 PM
psychoticmess: what's up? 11:36 PM
Kayla: i probably didn't see... 11:36 PM
NuclearHighway: we are ok though. im just afraid of talking to new people now. 11:36 PM
Kayla: omg! no you shouldn't be! 11:36 PM
help: [crying] 11:36 PM
The awesome AJ joined the chat 11:37 PM
psychoticmess: what's wrong? 11:37 PM
Kayla: please....dont stop talking to new people nuclear 11:37 PM
daniela: what's the matter help? 11:37 PM
AJ: Kayla [frown] 11:37 PM
Kayla: im banned from kik AJ [frown] 11:37 PM
AJ: How? 11:37 PM
Kayla: it was me being stupid nuclear im so sorry for thinking that 11:37 PM
NuclearHighway: i have a bad first impression on people psychoticmess. but i dunno maybe 11:37 PM
help: do you guys ever feel lonely & suicidal ? Aug 4
TheTraveler: everyday 11:38 PM
Kayla: cos my parents dont want me on kik for some stupid reason 11:38 PM
AJ: Kayla i need a hug 11:38 PM
daniela: all the time 11:38 PM
Kayla: you dont nuclear!! 11:38 PM
psychoticmess: every often help. 11:38 PM
AJ: Yes help I do 11:38 PM
Kayla: [hug] @AJ 11:38 PM
Kiana was AFK for 1 hour and got auto-kicked 11:38 PM
Kayla: wats rong? 11:38 PM
help: sucks huh ? 11:38 PM
AJ: No I get over it 11:38 PM
NuclearHighway: well, i think about it over time. were ok though [big grin] 11:38 PM
Kayla: nuclear plz forgive me 11:39 PM
Kayla: [big grin] really? 11:39 PM
Kayla: we are? 11:39 PM
NuclearHighway: i do i was never mad at you 11:39 PM
TheTraveler: It's kind of a never ending circle for me 11:39 PM
Kayla: but..i thought..... 11:39 PM
psychoticmess: LOL it does help 11:39 PM
daniela: yes help it does but i always feel a bit better knowing it's not only me but many others 11:39 PM
daniela: not to say i'm happy others are sad but you're not alone 11:39 PM
psychoticmess: ^true 11:39 PM
Kayla: [big grin] im glad nuclear! [big grin] thanks so much!!! 11:39 PM
Kayla: yay!! [big grin] 11:40 PM
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This hit me like a truck. I never knew that my first impressions on people made me look like such a terrible person. I know Im nice but this is probably why a lot of people hate me. I know that its just an internet chat but this happens in real life as well i just don't know what to say, cant understand social concepts very well im just confused this is complicated..
I thought I was just alone because I live in a small town but just realized that theres a lot of people out there that just think that im a jerk..
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