hi blainewarbler
I too always felt like a fraud. I would be saying I was ok but screaming inside that I was doing horrible and would somebody please notice. nobody ever did. so here and there I would open up to a few trusted friends about how I really was doing. I wouldn't do it to the same friend every time because it was really too much for one person to handle. I would save the big stuff for my therapist. but occasionally, I would tell friend A something, and then friend B, and then friend C. so soon it would all be out on the table, but nobody had the whole picture. but I didn't feel like such a fraud anymore either because my friends knew I wasn't ok.