{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Thank you my sweet friend. You say "irl". It IS Real Life. There are real people sitting at the other end of the line who impact us daily. It just lacks a little that we can't see and touch each other.

I know you care about me a great deal, but for the life of me, I can't see why. At least, not right now. But I've said it before, "You (PC) are my family, my friends, those that feel my emotional state." I don't know what I would have done without you for the last three years.

It's just sacrier than heck to start having the same symptoms those gone before you had. Brings you face to face with your own mortality. Hopefully, the fact that I'm resisting will win out and nothing worse come of this... at least not for a long time. But when my mom had her first stroke, I knew I was destined to the same end. It's scary! If I knew that my loved ones here would be around me, I wouldn't be so scared. As it is, most of my own kids are estranged from me... and I don't want any death bed pleadings of forgiveness. "If you love me, tell me NOW!"

{{{{{{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}}}}}}}} You know I love you, don't you, Hon??