Who needs a man you can't trust? I am going through the same thing. Some days I feel down and depressed... today is one of those days I keep wishing that he had been able to treat me better, because I really loved him. Other days I feel better. We may yearn for the relationship that could have been - but it was never really there. It is time to adjust to reality. Gosh, I feel for you... I totally identify with that pain.