Bharani1008 you are right but I am so afraid to tell him. I have told him about the rape that happened a few years ago and that did not go well. He has a serious issue with men who do physical harm to women. He is very comforting and will just let me cry it out. I know that one reason why I am marrying him is because I feel safe with him. I have a hard time telling anyone what happened because it is family. It totally embarrasses me. He deserves to know everything but I am not strong enough to tell him.