Same advice here. See a professional. Accept the treatment that is suggested be it medication or therapy. There is hope for you. So many of us have gotten better with help. I've been on medication for decades and can't imagine being without them. The fuzzy thinking and poor memory are especially disconcerting when you are out in society. I even have trouble following simple TV shows but everything is better for me when I'm taking my meds.
There really is help and hope. See someone soon. You won't regret it.
Good luck