This happened to me years ago in the military. I went thru lots of therapy and several partners. Some of the therapy was helpful, and one or two confidants/relationships as well. Must admit, in my case, it's taken time, plus also have BP diagnosis and all my life off and on have had to manage mental health. But just keep trying. The best to you all that posted who are struggling with this, in any capacity. It can be very hard, but can at times, get better, I think. Just my two cents!