The tons of energy I had last week as a side effect of my medication is gone. I do think I am having some results though. I don't feel as dead when I wake up in the morning despite still having problems with waking up multiple times during the night. I also seem to be able to control the amount of replaying and rehearsing of conversations in my head.

I've been really stressed since friday though. My therapist is pushing me to have a mental assessment done. On one of my first posts here I said that I have a ton of puzzle pieces that don't fit together, so maybe that will help me solve the puzzle. I have long standing problems from early childhood that I need answers to. I have decided that I want to do it, but I am so scared of talking to someone new, and what the results will be.