I have an aunt who is manic depressive and some cousins who have shown signs of it as well but none have been diagnosed. I'll be calling my doctor back today to see what our next course of action will be.

I'm actually having a really good day today. The company I work for has training siminars each year where a speaker comes in and teaches us how to be more professional in our field. Yesterday was more directed towards the career aspect of life but today was towards self improvement. I took a lot away from this class. The speaker, Ray Spies, is amazing and gets better with each year he comes here. One thing he said that really sticks out in my mind is about anger. The example he gave was: You could cut me off in traffic or stop at a changing traffic light when you had plenty of time for 2 cars to get through. Chances are, that makes you angry. But the other driver isn't who actually angers you.. you make the decision to get angry. It's a mindset. Our minds make the decision to let something get to us, or just shrug it off like nothing happened. It gives me something to think about.

I won't bore you anymore but I'm telling you, this man was far better than the psychologist I've seen twice. He gave some charts to use to control anxiety and so on. I'd be more than happy to type some of my notes up this weekend and post if anyone is interested in reading them.