Thank you so much for your reply, Christina86,

I know these are very petty issues, but I am still figuring out how to ask my other questions.

No i do not have a therapist. I have thought about meeting with one many times, but I am frankly not sure if my problems are worth the time of a therapist. Also I feel that if I do, i will lose that sense of my self, self worth ( I am not sure how to explain it) which keeps telling me to shut the **** up and deal with these petty things like the rest of the world manages to; and I find myself unable to do so, and find myself sinking deeper into it. This time my withdrawn phase is longer than ever.

But over these years, I do find myself challenging myself more, getting myself to go out and meet people. In a way I do find myself needing it every now and then. Although I return back highly depressed and frustrated and really angry with my self over things others would just "get over".

But I rarely have any panic attacks now. I do feel motivated to better myself. But then a phase comes, where i just cry my days out. And i feel helpless and hopeless again.

Do you think I need to see one?