I hate that I can be having a great day and then one small comment from my dad, stepmom, or sister can turn the entire day into a disaster. The thing is I know that their comments are just small simple truths and to get me to care more for how I treat myself on the outside but it still pisses me off. I have to hear from strangers that I am/ can be pretty without having to spend hours trying to look that way....They are always pushing me to the edge and I often fall for theses small pokes at me and end up in complete and utter misery unable to do anything at all except hate them and myself....I hate being so emotionally delicate and the others not caring to be careful about setting me off... My sister makes me feel so inadequate because she is the smart and useful one and she is younger than me what am I .....I try and try to find something usful that I'm good at so I can at least say that I'm better at it than her but so far no luck. I know its not a competiton but I can't help feeling that I am just a useless piece of furniture. I a surprised that I actually got the guts and type this out, but right now I am just imagining myself writing this only for myself. I know that I need to talk to the others but.....I feel like I have tried to reach out to them and let them know how I feel..... They say your good at music and I say no just because I can play an instrument with a fair amount of skill doesn't mean I'm good at it plus in real life I feel like music isn't all that useful....They say I can cook and I tell them my stepmom doesn't want to eat my cooking and they don't compliment me on anything except when they are trying to calm me down....Sorry for rambling right now trying to get this out of my system before having to face my first day at my first job ...which is also my sister's first day and first job. I could go on forever about this and to completely vent this I would have to but this is already too long to read