Thank you, George.

I bought the stock directly from the local utility company some years ago. Through an Internet search, I found who is the agent handling the stock accounts for this utility. I've contacted them and they say they've no record of me as a stock owner. I've tried contacting the utility directly, but that is proving very hard. I need to work at it more, have patience, and accept that I may have to make numerous phone calls and be on hold for a long time. Normally, I can do that. My state of mind is so freaked out, I am despairing, without really trying. I know that sounds childish.

The manager at the complex is a very stiff person, not easy to talk to. I don't think she would be willing to let me just withdraw mention of that asset. (I would know, if I went to another complex, just to not mention it.) I feel like it's too late to do that.

For some reason, this set-back has precipitated me into a major mental collapse. What I'm going through, mentally, is awful. Sensible minds would say that I am just doing this to myself. That may be. It doesn't matter. My state of mind is what it is.

It's like I got overly enthused about the apartment. I got all excited thinking I had a direction to move in. My depression dropped to the lowest it's been in months . . . then rebounded to the worse it's been. Now I am second-guessing everything and thinking that I don't really want to go to this place at all. I became very intimidated of the apartment complex manager.

I guess this is what they mean by emotional dysregulation. I get severely dysregulated . . . hopeful enthusiasm alternating with horrendous fear and despair. I have been holed up at home in an awful state.