Oh wow, I can so relate to this! I'm stuck in a job I hate but it pays the bills. Try to do what you love to do if you can figure out what that is. I'm in my 40's and look at my life and how I feel I am a failure, paranoid at any time I'll get fired at the job I hate anyway. What keeps me going is my 13 year old son. He makes me want to find a reason to live.