I saw my therapist tonight and couldn't even talk. I am so exhausted and feel like crap. When I am at work and around people I can fake it but when j am alone I am so irritable and feel worthless.

Now my therapist is concerned about me and that makes me feel pathetic and guilty. I signed a release so she could call my doctor. Looks like I am headed towards a medication adjustment, which I don't want to do.

I just don't want to live anymore and those thoughts scare the crap out of me.