So, I've been reading about illusory memories and false memory syndrome (a few links, if you're interested:

http://web.uvic.ca/~slindsay/publica...95LindRead.pdf
The Reality of Repressed Memories

)

So I figured I should outline what I knew before my other "memories" "came back"

-I had nightmares of being molested ages 3 to 5 or 6 (ish)
-my uncle coerced me to lay on him
-my uncle coerced me to spoon with him
(All the while me saying no)
-I felt weird
-a program about mars was on
-I laid down
BLANK (In which there are little flashes that were "recovered" but now I'm not really sure enough to trust them)

I think I was hiding after.

I was a twisted, sick kid. I know that. I had super erotic and terrifying dreams from a young age involving dominance and I was always the submissive one.

So, the articles above talk about the rareness of repression and the lack of clinical evidence for the cases.
I know it is VERY controversial, but I don't know what to think, now.
I actually emailed Elizabeth Loftus, a qualified expert who authored one of the articles and is referenced in many articles that pontificate on repression, and told her my story. She said, basically,

"sorry I've been busy. There is no evidence that shows the validity of repression or derepressed memories. Best wishes"

So now I'm confused.
But I do know some things for sure.
I'm just afraid that I've made a horrible mistake by digging where I shouldn't and making a dangerous mess of things.

What are your thoughts on this?