I go back and forth about really needing to talk about this, only there's no one to talk to about it. I get into a que at a chat site, then the wait is too long and I lose my nerve. When I click away, I find I really need to talk about it, and it was just the anxiety that made me jump out of line. I've been doing this for the past 3 hours. Now all the chats are coming back busy. I'm trying not to give in to the si urges, but I'm not sure I care to avoid it right now. I would go to bed, only I'm not tired and my sleep meds don't help of late. It would just result in me laying awake without access to distractions... :/