i think i need more than i am getting. i am seeing T once a week. i saw her twice a week for a little while -- i had to ask, and it was really hard...part of me wanted HER to ask, but realized that I need to ask for what i need. anyway, she doesn't do twice a week as a regular thing...we're back to once a week -- and i am not doing ok.

i actually did a crisis chat thing tonight...and the person i was chatting with said, "it sounds like maybe you will benefit from inpatient treatment. have you talked to your counselor about needing more?"
Then I kinda told her about having been seeing twice a week for a bit. Then the crisis person said that she couldn't help me anymore.

ugh...so i need more...even a freaking crisis person can help me...am i seriously THAT freaking messed up??