Your not making too big a deal about it. He betrayed your trust. There is no chart saying how long it will take you to get over this. Therapy of course would be very helpful but I understand the financial difficulty.

Have you tried keeping a journal and just dumping all your feelings on paper to possibly help get them out of your head and off your heart? Sometimes that can help. Posting here will most likely be beneficial.

Welcome to PC I hope you find the support and understanding here that I have.