Ok thanks for the advice, I wont contact him. It's just really hard after everything we've been through together that he could just cut me out of his life so easily. It's strange to think he'll probably just never contact me again, after a year and a half. It's so hurtful and I'm worried I still wont be over it in a year or something, it's a really scary thought. I was so happy and confident before we went out, and I just want to get back to that place again. Anyway thanks again for the advice, really appreciate it.