I also know the feelings of emptiness and loneliness, it's hard to get motivated and I'm most of the time depressed, i do have a doc and T but they only can do so much, like talking and prescribing meds. It all leads to hopelessness and I am down in the dumps alot. I don't know if you want this child, but i hope and pray you can cope with it and will pray for you. I have 1 son he's 22 now and he is the light of my life.