I know this is for unipolar depression but anyway...
I'm feeling horrible, terrible, horrible, horrible. I feel tired. I feel useless. I feel sick, too.
I don't know why doesn't this go away. I want this to go away. I want to feel normal again. I feel like I want to puke. I stare at the others (alters) all day, looking how happy they are and how many things they do. But when I have to do something, I simply can't. I'm feeling horrible. I ate way too much.
I wonder why does this has to happen. This weekend we'll go to Tom's father house. He was our abuser and will always be. We told our mother, but a few days later Tom was afraid and told her that it was OK. And now I feel like I want to die once again. I don't want to go there. I want to be treaten like a person, not like an animal. Only because the body is underaged we don't have the right to be safe? We don't have rights? Why do they make us go to that horrible place? It's a torture and will never end.
I also loose time. Literally. Already August 7th. One month of vacations. It seems a lot, but it doesn't look like a month has already passed. It's horrible this feeling. I always had some kind of post-vacational vacation. But if during vacations I feel this way, I can't even imagine how will I feel after vacations.
Perhaps it will be better because we'll have more things to do. But although we don't have much work at school, it always looks like too much and we end up doing nothing.
I just want to hibernate or something... Until the depression passes.
Allie
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