Hello all of you people that have been very supportive to me. This is a great community to share problems and help people through them in times of need. Saying that I am grateful to have all of you on my path to everlasting recovery.

The news is good for me these past few days. I've been off my abilify because it was causing some irritability and I felt depressed on it. My psychiatrist told me to use some cogention to get the side effects out of my system. They're still there, I'm twitching and don't sleep the best. So I got off those meds for some days and went to see her on Monday. She prescribed me lamictal. The one that causes a deadly rash if not taken correctly. It's one you have to build up the dosage.

She gave me the option of go off the meds all together, but said she wouldn't advise it as I would be likely to fall back into a psychosis. I really wanted to do that choice, but against my best interest I decided to give the meds one more chance. So I got the prescription and have yet to use the medicine. I feel really clear, the best I've felt since I had my break. I am talking better and recalling information that was hard to retrieve before.

Last night I was in a social situation and I was quiet, but I do believe that this is due to some sort of social anxiety. I feel like I had things to say, but just kept quiet due to the fact that my confidence wasn't as high as some of those in the room. Before those people arrived I was able to communicate great. I think it's just a few more humps to go over and I'll be all set. The only problem is that all this is coming while being directly off the meds. I don't want to go back on, but will.

Has anyone had experience with lamictal? Normal kinda feels like mania because I haven't felt this good in a long time. My psychiatrist also said the lack of words could be due to depression. I don't know, all I have know is that I'm functioning better and even if I'm not back to 100% I can probably get there seeing a therapist. Thoughts???