It just has seemed to come in this bundle for me On. I suppose perhaps, somewhere within, I prefer this. Because at that point, it is in the open. Not, or less…likely to surprise me when the dark side comes settling down. I seem to press genuine love down. It frightens me. I can't even trust it. I become vulnerable if I consider believing someone loves me, or if they state they do. Presence…wow. That hits home. I have been told I don't consistently have that feature. I mean aside from the D.I.D. I have a dissociative element which is there affecting cognizance. Your advice " trusting while protecting your own boundaries - being clear on your needs and rights " is perspicacious, and appreciated. Thank you. And, thank you for caring for me. The sentiment is mutual.