Hi. Welcome... We get trapped in the fear too...we become helpless... and when we look back its easier to see what maybe we should have or could have done differently.. but we can't do that to ourselves...we can drive ourselves into a bad place trying to figure out the what ifs and if only's...

The fact is we can't always make the best choices.. we make mistakes.. we have weak moments.. we are human.. and if you love your children as much as it sounds like you do... then you know in your heart that you never wanted them to be hurting or suffering in any way.Hold on to that.Forgive yourself. They will learn to forgive you too.All you can do is admit your weaknesses.. acknowledge your faults...show your sadness over what they had to live through...and be there for them the best you can now...

Time heals... you MUST take care of yourself.. emotionally and physically so you can be there for your children. You have to earn their trust at this point... and taking care of yourself so you can be there for them is one way you can gain their trust.

Everything is going to be alright... you have survived this far.. and now that you are here where you can have some support of others who know what its like.. you will not have to do this alone...

How long were you with him? How old are your kids?How long since you left him?Tell us your story if you can.. it will help to talk.

Wishing you the best!Faith