Thanks wildflower. It helps to write about it. The stack of tissues just keeps growing. My usual support people can't understand very well except my mom and I can't go to her (I will tell her when I can get myself under control better) because it hurts her even more. She watched my sister and me go through it and she tends to blame herself.

Jeff bought a car he couldn't afford a few weeks ago so that seems like a possible check in the bipolar column. But then I don't know as much about schizophrenia. I know that I can't get a diagnosis here, but any insight would be great.