I spend my life listening to other peoples' problems. I'm no martyr. I enjoy it. It makes me feel purposeful, otherwise I wouldn't be here.
I feel like a character from fight club. Wriggling my way into others' support systems.
I won't talk about anyone specifically, but I've allowed myself to become surrounded by self indulgent, and problemed people. Every relationship I form revolves around the other person, and how they are feeling. Because of my nature, I actively encourage it, so I don't blame them. However just for once, I'd like to open up.
I come here to read stories, not to talk about my own. In fact, I read this site for years before I joined.
I do the same in real life. Constantly meeting people to listen to their problems. I don't think it's healthy, on the scale I do it. I don't even get the same 'fix' from regular people with regular sized problems.
How do I stop without feeling worthless?
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