in april my boyfriend of about three years(off and on) killed himself. i was the last person he spoke to and it hurts so bad! he told me he thought that in the situation he was getting in he would hurt himself. i told his doctor. i told them all that he seemed very serious. they said that he had threatened it so many times they had no reaon to suspect he would hurt himself. my counselor keeps telling me that i did what i could, but i cant help but feel that it is my fault... i know im young and people say you cant find true love when you're young, but i was...AM truly in love. i love and miss him sooo much. we knew what color our wedding was gonna be. and it hurts so bad i cant see him or talk to him! somebody tell my honestly, does it ever get any better?? six months feels like less than an hour ago, i can barely stand it.