I am listening also. I am so very sorry you have such frustrations in your life right now.
It's so ridiculous that you weren't put on any meds. What does a person have to go through these days before the docs will help.
I was where you are at a couple years ago. My kids are grown and gone but when they would come home, I didn't want them there. I didn't want to talk to them or anything. It felt like a chore to have to sit and talk with them.
I was the same way with my husband. I didn't want him around either. It's a wonder he stayed with me.
It does get better though. I promise. Sometimes, it takes a while but it does happen.
I have been on antidepressants for a couple years now and they were a God send to me. Wow, what a difference.
Hang in there and I wish only the best for you.
Take care,
Linda