Even though you are still in despair, it is good to hear from you. Yes, we want to help in anyway we can and the more you write, the more we will learn and hopefully, be able to help more. Even if it's just to lend an ear and open arms, we are here.
I am glad you are on antidepressants. Do you feel they are helping you at all? if not, maybe they need to try different ones. I had to try several before we found the right ones that do the job.
I'm also glad you are seeing a T. They can help tremendously if you have a good one and it sounds as though you do.
I'm wishing the very best for you.
Please keep in touch.
Linda