how does someone who resists feeling loved and safe and wonderful ever find someone who will make her feel loved and safe and wonderful?

i see why i resist ending it with my bf. there is a lot of good there. and i'm trying to not walk away from another one. i don't want what i didn't get in childhood to confuse me into thinking that i'm going to get it now... i was a girl then. i am an adult now.

i just am not settled in with the imperfection of it all... imperfection meaning things i want that i don't get with him... and i think i am supposed to be giving a lot of that to myself now anyway and stop looking to another to give it to me...

have you felt like this?

what did you do?