I have not been on a therapeutic dose of anything since March. Really hoping I will be able to tolerate this lamictal because I can't take these ups and downs anymore.

Just came off a 3-4 week hypomanic/manic phase which of course wasn't helped by 25 mg lamictal, probably curbed by saphris. Since Monday, was plunged quickly into a bad depression. All of a sudden, my world is doom and gloom and I feel like I'm up against a monster.

I believe my pdoc is good and knows what he's doing. That's one positive thing! He said viibryd should take effect after being on 20 mg for 2 weeks. That's another 2-1/2 weeks! How will I make it? I feel like I'm moving in quicksand. Energy is so poor. Can't think straight or make decisions.

I've been here before and have made it through, so I suppose I can do it again. I'm trying to use CBT techniques on myself throughout the day. Sometimes (often) it's hard to think rational, more positive thoughts than the negative ones that stream through my mind.

I just have to hang in there until the viibryd kicks in. Minutes seem like hours when I feel this way.

I will go for a walk when my husband wakes up, and I know that'll make me feel better.