So I am on holiday and officially at my friend's house.

And yesterday I spent the day ready to cry! I was a mix of feeling like I was utterly worthless and also very irritated!

My friend sorta kept me waiting around for like 4-5 hours. Keep in mind, I'm an early riser. I will wait around no problem until the other person is awake. So she was awake after a while, and we were talking about what to do yesterday. She doesn't say no or yes or that to anything.. instead she says she needs to have a shower (fair enough), but then WENT BACK TO BED! That was after I pointed out that I was in fact starved and needed to get lunch soon. About 4-5 hours after saying that I was reallllly hungry from having already been awake for ages... we finally went to get food.

Then we had a good time while we were out, went to a board game cafe where we played for hours. Stopped to grab supper on the way home, and get back to flat where I get ignored as she and her bf eat at their computers and there's no space for me to even be in the same area. So I ate my supper on my own.

I'm glad to get to spend time with her, and I'm trying to keep things chilled out.. but it's Thursday, and Tuesday and Wednesday we haven't really done a single thing at all aside from go to get food. And I can't ask for her keys right now because she is sleeping.

I'm feeling rather sad about it. I'm not in this city to sit around in an apartment I could do that at home. That IS what I do at home.