one extreme to another...i can't make myself eat...and of course it's even more difficult because i am alone...no one to see that I am not eating. I ended up not going to breakfast this morning -- some ladies from bible study were going. I couldn't bear to go. Just told them I wasn't feeling well.

usually the self-harm and suicidal thoughts dissipate when I stop eating...but not yet so far...I see my T this afternoon...